desiderata

6 days of work led to a new, spur of the moment haircut and alot of drinking. summer is settling in and all the restlessness that comes with the endless sun. the small publication i am planning on putting out in december has, i think, officially begun its transformation from an idea to actuality. the name will be "desiderata". there should be a benefit show to fund it in september. i already got some people who are going to send submissions and a few helpers besides just me and madeline. today is the first day that i have been able to begin writing out a mission statement and figuring out the different sections of it, etc. in case you are unaware, i have been wanting to produce a small publication magazine for some time now. it basically started from a dissatisfaction with most "zines" out there and the specificity of them. opposed to focusing on one subject or medium of writing, i want to include an all-encompassing grab-bag of various subjects. imagine a magazine where you can read an essay, a piece of fiction, an article about science and learn something about the environment AND look at art. and imagine if it didnt focus on the left or the right...but chose to try and display both. mind you, i am well aware this isnt the most original idea and there are other publications out there like this. however, a majority of them are major publications. going to the journalism conference in d.c. with the nation was really inspiring and i think the best thing said the entire conference was; "hey...if there is something that you feel is lacking out there...then fucking do it yourself." simple words...but to hear them come from a girl who is only 27 and the assistant cultural editor of the nation and then to later find out that she got this job from pretty much just doing really good-looking independent publications since college...made kind of a difference to me. (check out her small pub: ://www.thecriermag.com) so why not? the more i do and the more that happens... i will keep updated on here...other than that...lots of work...reading...trying to write at least 1000 words a day (does this blog count?)...i actually...for the first time...um...ever...have gotten an idea for a whole entire novel. maybe a novella...maybe a long short story...who knows. we will see...

heres something silly:

3 albums to maintain the gloom of winter through those boring hot summer days:

the cure "pornography":

so you probably like the cure. and yeah...i know....you got disintegration and you've wept all over the goddamn cd...but dude...pop in "pornography" (the 3rd lp by The Cure) and let the raw, young, and poetic mr. smith, who didnt care about making a dime because he was probably just going to end up a backup guitar player for siouxie sioux anyways at this point, remind you the reason why you like to suffer, why life should never be full of happiness, why you sometimes wish you had the idiotic passion of your life at 16...let it bother you that you dont write poetry anymore...let it make you ask yourself why you've forgotten your emotions in place of intellectualism...listen to it.

bauhaus "in the flat field":

much rawer and darker than "pornography" and even sort of dance-y. not to mention their t-rex cover of "telegram sam" is better than the original. forget peter murphy solo, love and rockets and all the rest of the crap they put out after this. "in the flat field" is a band that studied joy division and projected what they would of become with better equipment and more drugs. fucking scary shit...

magnetic fields "get lost" and "house of tomorrow" e.p.

these two releases get overshadowed by the massive "69 love songs" and even "i". however, they are essentially what "69 love songs" would of been if it had been paired down to a single lp. (those of you who are familiar i am sure could pick out 20 songs from the entire collection and would be fine with leaving out alot of the rest) anyways, stephen merritt brings his melancholy lyrics and monotone voice and places it over repetitive pop music. catchy, sometimes it makes you want to jump around your room with a frown... but its also sort of maniacal and dark as well. perfect music to listen to when all you want to do is smoke cigarettes and wear a sweater but its a hot summer day and everyone else is smiling, wearing shorts, and riding bikes.

haircut: sometimes summer makes you do crazy shit. yep...thats steps in the side. and yes...its a comb-over. sorry for the shitty photo. the funny thing is that in portland...this haircut is really popular amongst the lesbian population. so i basically look like a lesbian. heres to androgyny...

i am sure it will last all of two weeks..